xtoolfreakx's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- wish [it's not enough. i need more. nothing seems to satisfy. i don't want it. i just need it. to feel, to breathe, to know i'm alive. finger deep within the borderline. show me that you love me and that we belong together. relax, turn around and take my hand.] i was to wash clothes tomorrow, and i'm going to newport. to see her. i don'tknow if that's a good thing or not... considering all that's happen, what she' said to me, or what i've said to her. it gets all confusing. i'm not sure which one is the best one anymore. all i know is that i don't want that to happen again. she can't take it, and i can't take it. it's worth it, if i knew that it was going to be good. i'm not going to fuck things up, no more lies. i have no more secrets to tell. and i love her. why can't i just love her?! why can't things just go so well that i think it's a dream?! i want to be with her so bad... but no more of this. no more.... it's not fair not to know what to do next.... it's just not fair. i want fucking instructions on how to fix this! diagrams, pie charts... something! it's not fucking fair. it's hard to move right now. i wish i could make it all better. 1:31 a.m. - 2004-01-17 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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